After years of being anxious (I still very much am, but better at masking), I thought just losing my filters/inhibitions in front of people I trust is probably a good idea; but then I start saying weird shit (just like the meme) and it all starts crumbling down

My god, they had scrolling window managers back in the day!

I need to stock up for the damage time, but it’s the same situation as the “just need to get started” meme

Maybe LibreOffice Draw can help you out? It has PDF editing capabilities