There’s always another task I don’t want to do. I give myself the choice. I can work on the computer thing I don’t want to do, or I can clean the kitchen which I don’t want to do. I can do either, but those are my only choices. That way even if I procrastinate the computer job I have to do, at least the kitchen is clean. And sometimes the momentum from cleaning spills over to the computer task.

Sometimes I fantasize about doing cocaine so I can finally get my doctors appointments all made.

Even if something tickles my brain it still doesn’t become a habit. I genuinely don’t think, in my 30s, with dozens of daily systems and all things considered a damn organized life, that I have a single habit. Everything I do is painstaking. Everything is conscious thought. I do laundry every single day and I have to think through the steps. Brushing my teeth is a slog. Figuring out what to eat is so difficult I often skip it despite just eating the same things over and over. If I don’t set alarms, I will forget to feed my kid. Alarms for vitamins that I’m not allowed to dismiss until the vitamin is swallowed. I am struggling to think of a single thing that is automatic. I have to think about opening the blinds every day. I have to think about turning off the lights at night (I think about the consequences of leaving them on to decide which lights I leave on. Every night). Nothing happens out of habit.

You may need to update your “no brainier”

As those of us who scroll in bed have long known:

One study, published in the National Sleep Foundation’s journal, Sleep Health, investigated iPhone use in young adults before bed and found no significant differences in sleep outcomes regardless of whether subjects used a phone with a less-blue display, a normal display or no phone at all.

Several studies have suggested blue light emissions suppress the production of the sleep-promoting hormone, melatonin. But researchers now say these effects are not as extreme as previously believed, amounting to, at most, a 10-minute delay due to screen use.

https://nypost.com/2024/05/30/lifestyle/screentime-before-bed-could-be-less-harmful-than-earlier-thought/