Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve had dreams where I’ll wake up as a girl and I’ll run to the mirror, and I’ll start crying because I actually felt happy with my body. Those dreams would always hit the hardest because I’d soon wake up after that and find out it was just a dream.

While transitioning, I felt like I was becoming more “me”, my true self, it’s hard to describe. It’s like a weight was gradually being lifted off of me.

The frequency of appearing as a woman increased post transition, but those dreams were already common pre transition too.

I hate being a man in my dreams, because that’s not me, it doesn’t feel like me, it’d be like waking up as a whole different person.

I’ve been told by my doctor that fat redistribution is one of the slower changes to happen, and also one of the last things to change after you stop HRT. It’s not permanent sadly, but it can take a long time after stopping HRT for the fat redistribution to reverse.

Literally any bathroom in a red state.

• Because I played with Barbie dolls as a child.

• Because I’m “weird”.

• Because I played as the female avatar in a game.