One thing I remember is gaining muscle after working out for a few months and feeling this really confusing sadness when I noticed that my shoulders got broader. I was so confused as to why so many guys liked being muscular but it just made me really depressed instead. Took me a while to realize that that strange feeling was actually gender dysphoria.

Yeah. I dual boot on an old laptop just in case I happen to need windows for something and sometimes the windows partition puts itself at the top of the boot order, but my Debian partition is still there and I just have to put it back at the top.

I made my own estrogen mod that doesn’t have a dependency on create. It also has stuff for trans mascs and enbies as well. It’s a little outdated though cause I’ve been busy with college and stuff but I’d like to update it at some point.

Thigh highs are actually a good idea for something to add though. I might actually do that when I get around to updating it.

My advice is to take steps as you feel comfortable to do so; there isn’t any wrong path. We all transition in different ways and really what is important is that you are happy.

If you want to take e, but also want to boymode until you’re ready to be publicly out, be aware that you may need a binder depending on how much breast growth you get. I myself tried to boymode my first few months on e and failed because my boobs got too big and people noticed.

Also congrats on cracking your egg!

Damn I had no idea even people as experienced as you were having a tough time. I’m a new grad and I spent two years searching for an internship and found nothing. I got two interviews at one company but they chose someone else. I’m making projects (currently teaching myself spring boot rn) and I’ve had a professional look over my resume and still nothing. Shit sucks right now :(

I remember your voice from last time and you definitely sound more feminine! Although I still hear a bit of dopeyness. Your voice is like a feminine Winnie the Pooh. (Actually, I think I might have said that last time, but you do sound notably more feminine this time!)

Feel free to roast my voice if you’d like: https://youtu.be/p2hA1QkZRJM

Also, make sure you keep practicing. I stopped because I’m pretty much happy with my voice but I slowly slipped part way back to my old voice. Once I realized that, it was pretty easy to get back where I was fortunately.

The article says they are making a plug-in.

Instead of a standalone product, JetBrains is pushing Aqua’s functionality into the Test Automation plugin. This plugin is available for JetBrains’ more established IDEs, such as IntelliJ IDEA Ultimate, PyCharm, and WebStorm.

I could write a lot about this but I’m going to keep it on the short side.

When my dysphoria was at the worst every day felt more and more hopeless. I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep which was the only time I had some happiness. Living felt like trudging through thick disgusting sludge and as time went on the sludge got thicker. I think I would have succumbed to it if I didn’t get HRT when I did.

I also sometimes also have this vision where my deadname has wings and a horde of them is swarming me like ravenous monstrous bats while I’m standing there trying to shield myself and swat them away. Often times when I think of dysphoria, that and the sludge is what comes to mind.

Fear is common, change is scary, and you are not alone. In my experience, the first few weeks after realizing that you’re trans feel the most scary. I had the same fears about ‘what is my family going to think?’ I’m a young’un so, I don’t have a spouse and children like you do, but I know that coming out to family is scary, and that it might be hard at first, but if they love you they will likely come around eventually, some people just need time to process. Although I have no experience with coming out to a partner, I do wish you the best of luck and I hope it works out well for you!

When I started HRT I was at around 270 pounds (122.5 kg) but I exercised a bunch and got down to 220 pounds (100 kg) which I’ve been stuck at for almost a year now. Despite losing all that weight in my first few months of taking HRT, I still had a lot of breast growth. I didn’t really restrict myself calorically, although I didn’t eat excessively either, so my calorie deficit came primarily from exercise, so it is possible to lose weight without inhibiting breast growth. Your genetics are also going to be a factor as well, some people just don’t get much breast growth, but that doesn’t mean they are any less valid!

I really appreciate this post. I’m sure it will help a lot of people get a better understanding of what an egg is and what is and isn’t appropriate.

I mean, if I can physically observe it with touch and sight, then it’s not placebo.

While some people are saying placebo, I think otherwise. I had softer skin after a few days and at about 7 days I woke up with breast buds and I know for sure that that was not placebo. Some people develop rather quickly, others take a while, and both are normal. I was an early bloomer with my first puberty, but I have no idea if that has any correlation with my second or if it’s just coincidence.

Well, If you really want your voice roasted: You sound like a feminine Winnie the Pooh.

Genuinely the voice isn’t that bad. You sound like a cartoon character, but a feminine one! I think you’re not too far off from having a really nice sounding voice.

Thanks for the reply, I know of where I can get DIY, I’d just rather not get DIY unless I absolutely have to. I do have a small stockpile currently that would probably last me long enough if I needed to wait for DIY to arrive in the mail though.

Thanks for the reply. I don’t know very much about injections but I’ll ask my doctor. I do have a few questions though about how to stockpile with them. From your reply, my understanding is that they are only used for a month, but if I use a smaller gauge needle I could use them for 2 months, which would allow me to save every other vial? Is that correct?

Please persist. I know it’s hard but those fuckers want us dead. Don’t give them what they want. Our existence is resistance.