Lumelore (She/her)

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Cake day: June 9th, 2023

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  • I could write a lot about this but I’m going to keep it on the short side.

    When my dysphoria was at the worst every day felt more and more hopeless. I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep which was the only time I had some happiness. Living felt like trudging through thick disgusting sludge and as time went on the sludge got thicker. I think I would have succumbed to it if I didn’t get HRT when I did.

    I also sometimes also have this vision where my deadname has wings and a horde of them is swarming me like ravenous monstrous bats while I’m standing there trying to shield myself and swat them away. Often times when I think of dysphoria, that and the sludge is what comes to mind.


  • Fear is common, change is scary, and you are not alone. In my experience, the first few weeks after realizing that you’re trans feel the most scary. I had the same fears about ‘what is my family going to think?’ I’m a young’un so, I don’t have a spouse and children like you do, but I know that coming out to family is scary, and that it might be hard at first, but if they love you they will likely come around eventually, some people just need time to process. Although I have no experience with coming out to a partner, I do wish you the best of luck and I hope it works out well for you!



  • When I started HRT I was at around 270 pounds (122.5 kg) but I exercised a bunch and got down to 220 pounds (100 kg) which I’ve been stuck at for almost a year now. Despite losing all that weight in my first few months of taking HRT, I still had a lot of breast growth. I didn’t really restrict myself calorically, although I didn’t eat excessively either, so my calorie deficit came primarily from exercise, so it is possible to lose weight without inhibiting breast growth. Your genetics are also going to be a factor as well, some people just don’t get much breast growth, but that doesn’t mean they are any less valid!