WYKYK; “When you know, you know.”
Don’t rush yourself. Don’t let anyone try to crack your “shell” or treat you like an egg if you feel uncomfortable with that. Be yourself and feel it out.
If after hearing a few testimonies and stories from other trans people you personally feel that experience more closely matches yours; by all means don’t hesitate to consider yourself trans.
Explore our communities, hear some stories, explore the meanings on your own terms and find what fits!~
Welcome to being Queer/Questioning. <3 Lots of space to explore and even decide you want to venture out to explore under the even wider umbrella of being trans.
So yes; technically you could argue you’re trans; even as you are. If that makes you comfortable; do it. If it does not; you don’t have to. It’s your own labels and your right to self-assign whatever labels you feel fit you best.
Now that the mandatory reminders of “It’s your choice” are out of the way; fwy will tell a bit about how fwy cracked.
Fwy has always been fascinated with various feminine things from a very young age; and that includes things like fashion, makeup, and other ways and forms of creatively expressing fwyself with fwy’s very own body.
Of course as you probably know, or have experienced, being AMAB typically means you get pidgeonholed into very specific, very utilitarian clothing and you don’t often get a lot of choices on the colors or things of that nature; and it’s typically even enforced at a high level that AMAB bodies also do not sport very many types of body accentuation or decorations that are not of a permanent and irreversible nature. No offense to those who do sport very colorful tattoos.
Even when Fwyfwy was just 8 years old; Fwy found immense pleasure in simple decorations of fwy’s own body. Given a box of washable markers and privacy; fwy would be very artistic and decorate fwy body, usually fwy feet and legs as those were easiest to sort of color or decorate to emulate something in some manner, to look like whatever fwy felt she most resonated with. Most frequently; fwy would resonate strongly with many female characters and found it strongly maddening that fwy couldn’t display fwy’s self decoration publicly; but it at least kept fwy sane to know fwy had the decoration on fwy’s own body underneath fwyfwy drab clothes.
This is only a fragment of fwy’s experience of being trans; but fwy feels it’s the best fragment to offer. Fwy does not want to be discouraging when you may just be seeking to feel like you are not alone. Rest assured that you are not alone.