I’m not sure that’s entirely true, my hips grew (and are still growing) even though I started at 20.

I heard that it got more complicated after 25 but anecdotaly some trans women have reported some hip bone growth after that.

Fat redistribution does the grunt of the work anyways…

I’m really tempted to go on DIY and it’s very reassuring to know it’s an option, I’m still scared of needles though, but I know that I can basically overcome most of my anxiety if it means relieving gender dysphoria.

I’m not in the US and injection are sadly not predcribed where I live, I am stockpiling my gel though, but I can’t get much more than what the pharmacy allows…

Welp, that’s terrifying. I’m planning to get an orchiectomy as soon as possible but it’s expensive (I’m a student) And the waiting lists can be a bit long.

Hopefully my estrogen supply never cuts off ;(

That’s so freaking cool i love it! <3

Yeah you can turn off the AI it’s not mandatory, besides, it’s really fast, has built in support for LSP’s , custom themes which are easy to make, vim mode out of the box, extensions, and some GitHub functionalities.

I was using Kate because electron is too much of a hog on my system and zed works insanely well (it’s slightly slower than Kate though but not very important)

I wish you could turn off the automatic downloads on zed though (or have a prompt to confirm the download) but it’s really shaping up to be a great text editor.

Thanks for your words, I often feel like looking like a woman is this unattainable goal, and I guess not reaching for it feels comforting if that makes sense?

I don’t let passing prevent me from living, I do basically what I want transition wise long hair, women’s clothing, perfume, you name it. but I really really really want to pass, because ultimately it would reflect what I really am on the inside. Now I feel torn like my soul is split between what I am and what people think I am.

I don’t know, I feel this sub is more of a happy place, I don’t want to ruin it, especially since positive trans spaces are hard to come by

I agree but if I go to the women’s bathroom I’d still immediately get kicked out :(

That won’t change for years until I get my maimed face fixed…

I haven’t gone on 4chan since the first few months of my transition, I just have to be real with myself at some point, I might never be treated like a woman in society because I might never look like one. I just don’t know how to cope…

I’ve progressively come to the realisation that I do indeed want GRS, I always wanted FFS and GRS felt less important, but as time goes on I realise that, I’m never going to have a fullfilling sex life with my current equipment…

I haven’t had FFS or GRS yet, but I’ve been on hormones for a while.

before HRT I was pretty depressed, the culprit was the fact that no matter what I did my body got worse (more masculine). For example: I hated shaving because I had to, I was horrified that shaving might make my beard grow faster (it doesn’t but it does make it more visible), so for years I would pluck it out in the hopes that it would slow down and stop spreading but it kept creeping up to other areas of my face. I couldn’t do anything .

That wasn’t the only thing, my face, my hairline, my body, my voice, everything was always getting worse.

At one point it genuinely got really bad and I decided that I would stop living as others expected me to, that day I started transitioning, I came out to my parents about two months later and 3.5 months after that I started HRT.

Starting HRT is really magical the first day you’re super excited but nothing really happens for like 48h, then if the treatment is correct (correct dosage) you start to feel pretty tired for a week or two, this is because testosterone kinda acts like caffeine in a way and gives you a lot of energy, you get used to it fast though and then the changes start coming in. More importantly though, you know for sure at that point that things aren’t getting any worse and that probably is the most HRT will do for your mental health.

Mentally the first month was a roller-coaster going from “Yipee i got HRT!!! 🎉” to “is this thing even working?☹️” (it is working it’s just slow, manage your expectations!), estradiol kicks in and suddenly you feel things it’s strange but stuff feels more vibrant, music(for me) became insanely good one day and I’ve been listening to so much music since, it’s crazy. That could 100% be because I was less depressed but I have a feeling it’s not only that.

Then the physical changes start, you actually don’t notice them, but I just took pictures every month an yeah things are definitely changing so that feels really good! It does feel unreal, like I have boobs now that’s the coolest shit ever!!! you get used to your body but things like hips and breasts still amaze me when I see them.

I’m not fully where I want to be but I actually kinda like my body and I would have told you that was impossible a few years back.

Oh gosh I’m so sorry! I’m going to put a TW in the title.