nikki

:3 that was my comment im glad its working out for you!

they saw all the fun words that queer people have and got jealous

diy is not as sketchy as it sounds, you just have to do some research and order your meds. its basically just t blockers and over the counter estrogen that cis women going through menopause take

heres a guide if you do exhaust your other options: https://diyhrt.wiki/

-i dont feel any weirdness calling myself a lesbian, trans women are women after all. this stigma fades after enough time to let it become normal

-im not diagnosed but pretty sure lol, not a position id give advice from though

-assuming your parents arent helicopter patents and invading your privacy, feminine undergarments are good outlets for this. i used to wear cheap sports bras (the ones with no padding, just the fabric/elastic) under my shirt. compression underwear (gaffe) or just womens underwear in general are nice too

shaving your body is a good way as well, and if you are allowed to grow out your hair then styling that in some way (even if its just a ponytail or bun) is nice

-still in my hometown

-couldnt see a therapist not because of my parents (money and priorities) for a long time, but i dealt with my mental health struggles through online gaming and friend groups. sorta brute forcing myself to be confident, and keeping in mind that it gets better. therapy helps though, even if slowly with how good i am at masking

swapnote girl is adorable and always stuck with me

parents understand and support me

siblings (that im in contact with) support me, others i lost contact for other reasons before coming out

grandparents love me but genuinely dont understand trans people at a fundamental level, i still need to explain a lot to them

generally everyone ive come out to are supportive, everyone i havent dont even recognize me or think im one of my sisters so whatever lol

if you exhale before the sneeze comes out it makes it cute for some reason

hell yeah

the wicked bitch is dead

those ones are so adorable and cover a lot, can definitely suggest them personally

take the leap and go for it! i sent some suggestions in another comment here if you want to take a look. they really are the key to me feeling comfortable in my own body these days, i can’t go out without it

I started out with these: https://a.co/d/aiW60Ry

Then moved to these ones: https://a.co/d/fFftKPP since its easier to stuff socks in them to go stealth a bit more in public lol

your hair is beautiful

wearing a bra, even with nothing for it to support was huge for me. love the snug and less exposed feeling i have when im wearing it. sports bras are easy and stealthy

it feels like everything is designed to funnel money into antidepressant distributors these days instead of actually solving why people are depressed

im sorry to hear that