Smorty [she/her]

I’m a person who tends to program stuff in Godot and also likes to look at clouds. Sometimes they look really spicy!

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Joined 2 years ago
Cake day: July 5th, 2023
  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zonetoTrans Memes@lemmy.blahaj.zone•been doing injections a month now it's so much better [CW: Assumes Viewer is Transfem]
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    6 days ago

    ooooh I wishwishwish needles wouldn’t give such genuine life-threatening fear feels, otherwise I’d totally do that… Actually… Imma ask.

    • OK, how painful is it?
    • How much do u have to inject?
    • How long do u take to inject fully?
    • Does it get uncomfy cold under the skin?
    • do u have to aim for specific part of leg?
    • do u usually have problems with the needles
    • how far do u have to inject?
    • do u just press in and pull out, or did u actually have to 1. Push needle in flesh, 2. press rod to insert fluid into blood 3. Pull out again?
    Content warning: me talking about uncomfy feels with needles. You may get nervous from this.

    For me, I always, without exception, get crazy panic before I get injected, as in like, months before. Then the stress levels keep increasing over the coming days, i keep going between bargaining, acceptance and regret and seem a lot colder to everyone around me, to the point that they think I’m sick and hand me a puke-bucket.
    Then, once the day comes, I may puke some times over the day, then when the actual moment comes, I usually first go “ah, that wasn’t so bad”, after which I fall onto the chair again, I lose my vision and hearing, I can’t feel anything besides aggressive raindrops shooting onto my body from all sides, and I feel incredibly incredibly sick. After 2 - 3 minutes I can stand up again and I can go in about 5 minutes.

    BUT! If the needle isn’t too long and aiming isn’t too hard, doing it myself feels a lot more managable. Especially since I’m the one in control and I know what I’m doing.

  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zonetoTrans Memes@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Shave your script
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    6 days ago

    yeaaaa i fortunately didn’t decide to write a coming out script and i think i made the right call.
    i’m very good at holding presentations because i get into this kind of safe-entertainer-like mode where i can super easily play entertainer for some time. at first i just kinda teased the idea, and mother was unreasonably understaning. i am very luck.
    so then i made a slideshow in LibreOffice Impress and presented infront about some more specifics. that worked very well for me and i didn’t get too emotional, since it felt more like answering factual questions than emotional ones (even tho it is very hard for me to see my emotions as real).

    sooo that worked for me! but i totally get the meme too <3