WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them]

sadly it sometimes feels like you have to have a phd in biology and psychology just to justify your existence

I gave up before I even came out based on how my mom treats other trans people, so I never mentioned pronouns and the like (not technically true - I did ask for my mom not to use one masc term in particular and said he female equivalent was fine months before coming out - of course she didn’t take it seriously since she assumed I was cis). Anyways, like 10 months after coming out and like 15 months after I had asked her not to use it, my parents suddenly were making an effort to avoid that one term (and some others). It’s because my brother talked to them without me and as far as I know probably just told them it bothered me and perhaps explained why I had not said anything. Unfortunately, people can’t just magically have a third party to represent them that aren’t seen as biased by transphobes.

Didn’t want to be outside the other day because it was too hot and humid.

Agreed. But young me didn’t get that. Didn’t take long after starting E to internalize that magic is real.

Being disappointed as a child/adolescent as you accept magic isn’t real because that means you’d never just wake up one day suddenly a girl.

Tbf, I don’t think I thought it was a normal thought - it certainly wasn’t something I was about to tell others. I just thought my wish was impossible, so might as well just bury it. I didn’t know trans people existed or how medical transitioning worked.

I’m sure its just a “still cis tho” joke.

But was pretty surprised when my mom asked me like a year into me taking HRT if I knew HRT would change my body shape the way it did as if she had just learned about it and thought I would be surprised by the effects? Like… what did she think HRT was for? Since then, she’s seem a lot more interested taking T though.

Two years in and they’re still testing every 3 months? Is that just the norm there?

Honestly, its not that hard to get a legit prescription in some places. I just had a short online appointment to get mine, which I scheduled the night before (I also did have to get bloodwork, but that was for the spiro, not the E). I did clicked a box when I signed up for the appointment saying I was an NB, so maybe a man would have to click something other than man to get the prescription?

Might even have been easier than getting it diy.

I intentionally got an E prescription, but by the time the prescription was filled, dissociation made me feel like I was just a different person again and I was numb to the idea of taking them, so I was just taking it because the previous me thought I should. So I took it absentmindedly for a little bit (but that was only like days, not months).

Anyways, its 4chan, so obviously its fake and gay™.

Are you here?

I think I personally have an aversion to live-action partly because trying to avoid looking at people because of self-denial. IRL, that’s easy to avoid, but you can’t really watch a show without watching it. Can’t say I’ve heard others express similar reasons though, but I supposed there’s a reason why “I want to be a cute anime girl” is such a popular webtoon (relevant panel).

Seems like that would be pretty hard to do? Guess I could try doing that next week though? Not in my skin of course. I’m terrified of the needle, but that’s not a concern that seems realistic without some extreme circumstance, like a car suddenly busting though the wall and hitting you mid-injection.

Congrats on the first one! I wish you many more successful stabbings! Or slow pushing needle through skin if that’s more your style.

That’s just how it is? Someone else mentioned DIY, but that’s how it works via prescription as well.

Also, as someone whose done injections of an unrelated medication (not insulin either) in a hardware store bathroom without alcohol wipes, there are far shadier places to be doing injections.

How so? Seems less dangerous than auto injectors people use for other medicines. Autoinjectors are less pleasant for self-use (but more pleasant when using on others - granted I never tried using a syringe on someone else, but I don’t know if I even could outside a serious emergency).

The point is, therapy and behavioral changes are good. But they have limits. Don’t rule out medication, just trust the doctor to know their shit. Also advocate for yourself if the doctor is too cautious. Mine was worried about stimulants and my blood pressure at my age and (lack of) cardiovascular health. It hasn’t been a problem at all

I haven’t talked to a doctor. Scheduling an appointment is the first obstacle, but I intend to try to get medicine soon™. My blood pressure and HR are generally low, so I’m not too worried about stimulants.

eta: •dude is officially a gender neutral term btw

Putting this disclaimer generally comes across as much more combative and much more like intentional misgendering than simply using words like “dude” and “guy” in gender neutral ways.

While that’s not really an option for such surgeries since its tissues are used generally, some people do get dildos that are replicas of their dicks before getting the surgery, so that’s a viable option!

Sending invoices sucks 😞

Ita been known I saw ADHD since I was a like a toddler, but never have tried any medicines for it because my mom was strongly against such (and the doctor was wrong with their prediction that I would struggle in school). But invoices are a thing over the past couple years that have been making me want to try…

I learned from the best at being in denial! Still would prefer people being in denial like this and get the treatment they want even if they have to justify it in weird ways. Its easier to think something like “I want to switch hormones” than it is to answer abstract questions like “what is a gender and what is mine if I have one?”

Step 1 is really hard sometimes. Going ahead to step 2 can be helpful for finishing step 1. Also, just because you’re trans doesn’t mean you want to be a woman. So you can finish step 1 and admit you are some flavor of trans, but still not know what your end-goals are or if HRT will help you get there and choose to start HRT as a way of figuring out.

Someone taking it who is benefiting from taking it results in you thinking we need to increase restrictions in the clear market?