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Cake day: March 30th, 2026
  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Gender affirmation before diagnosisEnglish
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    11 days ago

    Thank you. My age is one of my biggest hurdles when it comes to my mental health, so honestly, this is kind of triggering. But I of course understand what you meant and I’m grateful for the encouragement!!! 🩵

    I have always known how I want to behave, talk, look and feel. But I grew up in such a cisnormative context that I internalized the mantra, “something’s wrong with me”. My mental health issues didn’t help either: I had no sense of self worth whatsoever. 💔

    But I am here now. And I believe in my future. 🩷

  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Gender affirmation before diagnosisEnglish
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    12 days ago

    Finally back on a PC and keyboard 😅

    What got deleted earlier was, although not in its full glory:

    “English please. 😭” was just a really bad joke, trying to imply that makeup, to me, is like a foreign language that I don’t understand.

    I can’t stop smiling just by the thought of trying on nail polish! 😆💙 Maybe I’ll check some out tomorrow when I’m also looking for perfumes.

    There is a great thrift store where I live with a great selection of clothes that send a great variety of expression and identity! I live in isolation, but there might be one person whom I could ask to lend me, or even hang out with me when I try out, their nail polish. Although I can’t stop wondering what she’ll say when I ask her not to call me a boy.

  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Gender affirmation before diagnosisEnglish
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    12 days ago

    I wrote such a long reply and accidentally pressed “cancel”. 💔

    I guess I’ll just write the most important part for now: thank you so much for your heartwarming response! And thank you for not accepting transgenderness being framed as a medical condition. I easily go along with that jargon because of the hoops I have to jump through to justify myself. I even feel anxious about talking to the physician tomorrow, you know?

    Anyhow, thank you for all the great advice!!!🩵

  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zonetoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Transitioning without trans friends. [Venting]English
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    12 days ago

    I haven’t begun transitioning yet, but regarding not having anybody to talk to who truly understands you, I feel you. Painfully so. I am already depressed and the isolation makes it worse. Antidepressants do help to take the edge off so that I don’t end up lying in bed, all day, catatonic. I don’t even know what I was trying to say here. Oh, right, these online communities also do help. I know it’s nothing like the real deal, but I think you can feel genuine caring and love digitally too.

  • printf("%s", name);@piefed.blahaj.zonetoTransfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Therapy and outing myselfEnglish
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    12 days ago

    Hi Brook! Thank you for sharing! And congratulations on the confirmed HRT! 🩵 I’m so anxious, because I’m having a phonecall with my family doctor this Thursday and she is supposed to decide whether or not to send me to a gender identity clinic to determine whether I have dysphoria or not. I feel quite ready to cast off everything that is societally, culturally and biologically considered male thank you… 🥺 what if my family doctor says “no” for whatever reason. 😭 I’ll get a second opinion, of course, but the anxiety…!!! 🤣 aaaaaah I’m sorry. I just needed to vent and for now this is the only place. Which is to say, we’ll MAKE the future bright! Together! 💪🩵🩷🤍