omg russia 2.0, flashbacks of medical staff does like that, which wanted me put in fcking country psychiatry database

imagine aka progressive paid psychodoctor which

hopefully is one of the soft one

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa veryyy pain

quite risky aaaaaaaa, since i live in shithole, but idk since i asocialized not very bothers much

huuhh but audhd gives me much more stress than dysphoria, i somewhat disable(?), i basically cant do typical work/education/society/money etc etc, hopefully parents helpful so not bothers much, i am smart but uhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaa awawawaaa but basically cant leave country especially alone and we dont have that much money plus cats(tishka veryyy veryyy veryyy anxious cat he scared of everything he will not survive at all)

wanna be someone pet aaaaaa and live like now

also very terrible that it decreasing my appetite sooo much also scared that it involves muscle tensions buuuuuuuuuuuut is kinda not depended on it since it not antips*chotics(BUUUUUUT also often causes bruxism in ppl i also have tmj pains(sometimes is that awful that goes into whole head, ketoprofen fixes) or hypertensions with whole face/upperbody), tizanidine also helps a lot but somehow it stopped working since yesterday but i taking it only few days 2mg/twice and switched to 2mg/3times need try different doses and timing since is veryy short acting (half life 2.54h)

why they sell it with 107-y prescribtion aaaaaaaaaa its terrible i dont wanna go to another city to my dumb psycho, and giving money to them, maybe maybe maybe try find local neurologist

very fun hrt progress!!

11 months is still smol amount!!!

dont be dysphoric !!!

hehehehehehheheheh i still dont socialised basically at all

if try - fail

remember - ppl are insanely unsafe

prog is fun, i confirmed on myself

girlhorny is real but hopefully dont wanting a baby but induced lactation hehe

wtf where u live when get hrt at 12 basically avoiding male puberty at all

want get out but - no money

to get money and education sadly i too disabled AuDHD, is basically impossible for me any highpaid job, lowpaids are usually awful but there possible to manage for peaceful lowpaid

get uni/college - impossible for my brain plus costs are awful

hope only for luck and parents

huuuh pain

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa awful, how trans friendly area are?(where live)

cost of transition in thirdworld dictatorship

oestrogel 0.6mg/g - $26/month(1 bottle/month)

progesterone 100mg - $7/month

useless diagnosis - $55 once in private clinic(free for luckshits in psych wards, but there almost impossible now but veryyy possible to get schizo spectrum or idk)

orchiectomy - around $3000 inside country plus 200$ maybe travel to city(using fictional diagnosises in surgery documentation)

name change - idk didnt get it but is should bee just small fees for new passport but more pain is other docs

gender change - sorry putler said no

bloodtest - varies but last time for hormones was $46 (E2, T, freeT, LH/FSH, DHT, prolactine, SHBG, albumin) usually cheaoer but my brainworms decided to test useless things such as freeT(overpaid as hell since i tried to calculate with albumin/shbg, total T and it was veeeeryy similar number what i got )

plus more

home internet - $11 500mbit for party approved websites private vps hosting which hopefully not blocked now(hetzner blocked as well digiocean and some others) sooo +4 euro for unlimited internet access with full speed

rent - uwaaaa own flat here, but utilities is veryyy unfun atleast possible go to debt

idk wa more but it gets more expensive, if turn off TV zombiebox(idk i dont have TV)

aaaaaa stop crosspost ppplls

trans_joy is for JOY photos and texts transfem is for discussions and for any photos which discussion etc