just me

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Cake day: October 3rd, 2023

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  • i was on medikinet for a while, at first it made me sleepy, then it made me relaxed, and then it made me anxious, so i stopped

    whenever i take brain-chemistry meds for longer than a week or two my brain defaults to having them give me anxiety which is whack (this happens with meds for anxiety as well, thanks brain! you gelatinous wanker). after multiple trials of various meds i’ve mostly given up on trying more, but hey at least cardio works as intended!

    i’m still bitter about one thing - all those people who kept saying “just eat healthy and exercise and you’ll feel better :)))” were correct 💀 at least in my case





  • my tech aura comes and goes

    i once tried to log into a microsoft account for 10 minutes, and it only let me in once i took the laptop to my coworker and tried to show how it wasn’t working

    and then one of my other coworkers tried to restart a camera multiple times, and it only worked when i pressed the button



  • yeah i try to approach life that way but sometimes RSD is too fast for me to react. before i’m capable of logicking my way out of rejection - it hits, and the spiral begins, and that feeling of sinking in my chest is a point of no return. the only way to stop it is to go sleep for 8h to “reset”.

    even if i know that what i’m feeling is fully irrational, the spiral seems to be inescapable