this mood is what i call “i need to get shit done” where you give the distraction gremlin in your brain candy in the form of music and caffeine whilst you desperately try to use the remaining resources in your brain to get work done because the deadline has entered “i can actually conceptualise this event happening” zone of the calendar and you’re stressing out

casually throws out birth certificate

i think emotional attachment to objects is a human thing overall. but as adhd folks have object permanence issues, we do get re-attached to those objects that we forgot about pretty fast

reading that hurt me on an emotional level, heck no, never, how could you?

omg it’s your lamguage that has the mini amonguses, amazing

interestingly, i don’t have a conscious fear of needles but whatever self preservation mechanisms run in my brain go completely ape shit if i do a self injection.

it used to take me up to 2h to do my own T shots, and sometimes those instincts would present so intensely i was inches away from passing out (tunnel vision, ringing in my ears). i don’t fear needles, i don’t fear the pain, there barely is any to begin with, but my brain is hell-bent on not getting stabbed by my own hand. piercing the skin isn’t hard, but it sometimes took me 10min of trying to make my hand move and it just would not. i had to disassociate myself with loud music or youtube videos just so i could do it, and after i finally succeeded, i was often drenched in sweat and needed chocolate to stop feeling light headed

after 4 years of that with no improvement, i decided to just go to a local clinic and have a nurse help me, and now my T shots take a whole maybe 15min at most (other people >:|). i have no idea why that ridiculous gelatine of the head panics so violently it tries to turn off conciousness if i try to stab myself with a needle on my own, but if someone else does it’s like “huh, ok”

just why

“name your file please”

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“file already exists”

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“file already exists”

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sometimes i go a little wild and call a folder temptemp

i have an addon called session buddy that makes regular backups of all my open tabs. i must protect my precious tabs

huh! interesting! i guess i just missed that then. i remember some references to feminine characters liking chocolate a lot in cartoons but never to a point where i’d think it’s a whole stereotype

it is? 😭 i never heard of it. sounds like one of the weird things they’d say in the US so- is this a US thing?

what? who says that?

PatricianTV is my go to for games

Quinton Reviews for nickelodeon sitcoms

Hbomberguy and ContraPoints (also philosophytube but her videos are shorter) for breadtube

are the first that come to mind

“no think, do” works, but it’s hard to get into that mode. mindfulness sometimes helps but that’s a habit and habits are hard

unfortunately for the future me those are considered fully optional

i usually explain it like that:

on a good day when i make tea i only see 3 steps 1) boil water 2) take out a mug & tea 3) pour water over tea bag in the mug & enjoy!

on a bad day when i make tea i see 11 steps 1) pour water into kettle 2) turn the kettle on 3) find mug 4) take out mug 5) find tea 6) take out a tea bag 7) put tea bag in mug 8) make sure the water doesn’t reach boil [most teas need 90°C to brew well] 9) pour the water into the mug 10) don’t forget to take the mug with you 11) don’t forget to drink once it cools down

it’s the same action, and on all days i can easily do 3 actions, the problem begins when those 3 actions start looking like 11 actions

you can easily point your fingers at how evolution wired our brains in general. Unfortunately for us, civilisation apes who don’t get brain updates when things are going alrighs, it makes sense:

which is more important to remember?

• a place where there are really pretty flowers :)

• a place where the bears live

negative memories have more real estate in our brains because they could come in handy for survival later, evolution doesn’t care for your happiness, just survival. You could be the most miserable git out there but as long as you successfully fucked an opposite gential haver once then that’s all that matters. And if your misery somehow contributed to you having fucked a lot? oh boy are those genes getting passed on

that is so fair. i’m polish and learnt english the same way natives do, so i consider myself near native, and i also suck at both of my langauges

maybe your knowledge of german corrupted you then? 😭 i see the .de in your instance name

though the D³ sounds cool the nerds (doctors) would probably be against it as it’s a double negative that implies we get more dopamine than the intended deficit of it? or whatever a disorder of a deficit would be, honestly i’m not sure