Just cycled past this town hall in Belgium. Also lots of churches here hang the flag, including the progressive trans one. In other countries too. In the smallest towns to the biggest cities.
I know that it might seem a bit mean of me to dangle this in front of you, but I just mean to say that there’s a way forward and hope.
There’s colored lipbalm with natural colors. You can also get nailpolish. Perhaps get some mascara. You could get leggings or the like, the tighter fit will make you more feminine in presentation from your own point of view, especially with nail polish. Maybe get a glass nail file and start taking care of your nails more. Like I have my file laying around and just use it on a nearly daily basis.