My main emotions towards my trans-ness are deep disgust, disdain and a burning hatred TBH. I don’t always feel my emotions, but they are usually always there below the surface of what I perceive.

Edit: On HRT this has gotten less, but I still have so much bullshit ahead of me, it’s maddening

Also no, I’m not listening to that “archeologist” narrative, it’s just that my first puberty has done horrible damage on this flesh prison of mine, some of it irreversible or only so by invasive surgeries.

And it’s nor just all those “little things I dislike about my body” in isolation, those things add up to a disgusting whole…