I’ve been on HRT for about 6 weeks now and I’m pretty sure I’m at female levels. Got a late start at 29 and I still strongly doubt that I’m even trans and should be doing this (seriously, my story is a weird one I think). I would quite welcome being cis because that would mean I don’t have to upend my life and essentially start over under 10x more difficult conditions. I considered myself agender for a long time and maybe I am.

Before HRT I considered myself very much vers. I do understand that severe bottom dysphoria is not needed to be trans, and I intended to do maintenance to retain my ability to top. Now that I’m actually into it, my feelings have changed.

I’ve read that a full erection once a day is needed to reliably retain full function, but that sounds quite unpleasant to me now? I just don’t want to do it, and I don’t really care if I never use my genitals to top again. I’m also finding myself more welcoming to the idea of SRS.

  • Is it due to the nature of HRT and changing sex drive? I mean, duh, estrogen
  • Is it due to repression breaking? Was I masking dysphoria before?
  • Is it because I have read and internalized that this is how I should feel, in some people’s opinion, and I am conforming to that?

I don’t think it’s really the last one - I also understand I have more sexual/dating prospects if I’m vers, and I think I kinda care about that more than some fringe viewpoints about validity

  • Amy@piefed.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    16 hours ago

    To be perfectly honest, I wouldn’t worry about it. Just go with how you feel at the moment.

    Before I started HRT, I was on the fence about SRS: I figured I might want it one day, but I was cool as-is. A couple of months in, that all changed and I was pretty sure I wanted it. Now I’m booked for the op later this year!

    Why did my feelings change? I have no idea. But my guess is that I was more bothered by my overall appearance and ongoing masculinization that bottom dysphoria didn’t really register. Once I’d got that out of the way, the next biggest worry made itself known. So it could just be a result of shifting perspective / priorities.