From my earliest memories I always wanted to be ‘cute’, to the point that by 8 or so I was falling asleep trying to squish my head in my hands to stop me growing more masculine/‘not cute’ in my child-like mind.
By 15 there was global news about a trans girl in Germany wanting to go on blockers and it was this huge ordeal as she was ‘so young’ etc. I remember wishing I could’ve done that. I found out that it was near impossible to ever do in my country and required lots of therapy and you needed approval etc. I knew I’d never get too so I gave up on the thought.
By 17 I started ordering womens clothes on ebay and sneaking them into my room. Totally cis though!
I eventually gave up on it all because it could never happen and I just looked more and more masculine as I aged.
At 37 I met an enby kid in the daycare I worked at, I was so inspired that a little 3 year old was living their truth, and I soon discovered you could do informed consent. I realised I was trans and everything in my life ‘clicked’, such as my lifelong wish to be a lesbian. I’m on HRT now and happier than ever.
From my earliest memories I always wanted to be ‘cute’, to the point that by 8 or so I was falling asleep trying to squish my head in my hands to stop me growing more masculine/‘not cute’ in my child-like mind.
By 15 there was global news about a trans girl in Germany wanting to go on blockers and it was this huge ordeal as she was ‘so young’ etc. I remember wishing I could’ve done that. I found out that it was near impossible to ever do in my country and required lots of therapy and you needed approval etc. I knew I’d never get too so I gave up on the thought.
By 17 I started ordering womens clothes on ebay and sneaking them into my room. Totally cis though!
I eventually gave up on it all because it could never happen and I just looked more and more masculine as I aged.
At 37 I met an enby kid in the daycare I worked at, I was so inspired that a little 3 year old was living their truth, and I soon discovered you could do informed consent. I realised I was trans and everything in my life ‘clicked’, such as my lifelong wish to be a lesbian. I’m on HRT now and happier than ever.