I just read this article about beauty standards and while I see the excess of it as harmful I can’t help but feel hypocritical when I think about laser or hormones or even putting on eye shadow and mascara, not to mention FFS.
Every time I read a piece on self-acceptance and body-positivity I stop and ask myself - why can’t I be happy with my body? For me the dysphoria is mostly social but even then - why can’t I just accept my AGAB and live with it? How is changing my body to fit opposing gender norms (so I pass etc) different to gender-affirming procedures for one’s AGAB?
Both require the same underlying systems - and my face laser wouldn’t be attainable without the massive beauty industry making it affordable by virtue of many cis women using the service.
Similar with hormones. If most postmenopausal women didn’t get E prescribed, then it would be prohibitaly expensive (I guess this is a weaker point since hormones are beneficial for health reasons not just beauty) but still my use case is mostly aesthetical (to pass) so that feels even less justified.
It feels as if my transition is only possible because it’s either subsidised by an industry I see as harmful or via methods not intended for their initial purpose.
Anyone else struggle with any of this?
I have a master’s in medical biology and years of biochemical lab experience.
I’m not going to get an orchidectomy, because the future is extremely uncertain right now. I live in a country that borders Russia and if I can’t get/brew estrogen, I’d rather partially detransition than get osteoporosis which I have a family history of.
Besides in the case of invasion, I’m going to need to lean into the anger.
That’s great - sometime we should chat 😁
I suspect once you start estrogen your perspective might shift a bit. Either way, I hope you stay safe 🩷