The first time I tried honestly I felt intense dysphoria.
Because I could just see the form of a big man* in women’s clothing and I couldn’t help but feel extremely sad about how I was looking.
(*no there is nothing wrong about a man wearing “women’s” clothes. It was just my dysphoria and the hatred of my body talking because I felt this clash between what I wanted to look like and my actual body which I had always hated)
It was pre-hormones and weight loss. Today I appreciate my body from time to time, it’s gonna be even better in a year and half (6 months HRT today).
I love wearing my feminine clothes (still have too few of them). I’m still a big girl, lost 25 kg and need to loose 20 more for a healthy weight, but one that feels better and happy from time to time :3
The comic is good and cute :3
I just meant to say, the first feeling might not be euphoria when trying fem clothes. It’s hard sometimes to pinpoint what’s causing this feeling of being perpetually bad. Dysphoria, depression, social anxiety, pressure from family/work/relationships, etc…
Plus side of tucking or smoothing clothing is it’s just wins if it’s not uncomfortable. Granted, it also easy to never connect that to gender if you only experience it accidentally. Otoh, dressing fem and hating it because your body is too masculine is also a pretty clear sign that the problem is the body is too masculine, which can be improved!
Happy 6th month HRT anniversary and congrats on losing 25kg!
The first time I tried honestly I felt intense dysphoria.
Because I could just see the form of a big man* in women’s clothing and I couldn’t help but feel extremely sad about how I was looking.
(*no there is nothing wrong about a man wearing “women’s” clothes. It was just my dysphoria and the hatred of my body talking because I felt this clash between what I wanted to look like and my actual body which I had always hated)
It was pre-hormones and weight loss. Today I appreciate my body from time to time, it’s gonna be even better in a year and half (6 months HRT today). I love wearing my feminine clothes (still have too few of them). I’m still a big girl, lost 25 kg and need to loose 20 more for a healthy weight, but one that feels better and happy from time to time :3
The comic is good and cute :3
I just meant to say, the first feeling might not be euphoria when trying fem clothes. It’s hard sometimes to pinpoint what’s causing this feeling of being perpetually bad. Dysphoria, depression, social anxiety, pressure from family/work/relationships, etc…
Plus side of tucking or smoothing clothing is it’s just wins if it’s not uncomfortable. Granted, it also easy to never connect that to gender if you only experience it accidentally. Otoh, dressing fem and hating it because your body is too masculine is also a pretty clear sign that the problem is the body is too masculine, which can be improved!
Happy 6th month HRT anniversary and congrats on losing 25kg!