This is legit what im afraid of. I realized ive just been dissociating my entire life and hence didnt have any reaction at all to the concept of death while my friends were having an existential crisis. I also realized if i do start to become a person when starting HRT I will most likely have to go through to that whole circus again. Unsure how much my previous conclusions will help in managing that. BUT THIS WONT STOP ME ❤️😤
It absolutely made things harder for me. I actively didn’t care that I knew the world was going to shit, but now I’m terrified of it because I’m now an active participant. That said, I wouldn’t dream of go back for anything.
Yeah, same. Being indifferent to your own death is a bit of a shield. Now there’s no possibility of emotional distance between myself and everything that’s happening.
This is legit what im afraid of. I realized ive just been dissociating my entire life and hence didnt have any reaction at all to the concept of death while my friends were having an existential crisis. I also realized if i do start to become a person when starting HRT I will most likely have to go through to that whole circus again. Unsure how much my previous conclusions will help in managing that. BUT THIS WONT STOP ME ❤️😤
It absolutely made things harder for me. I actively didn’t care that I knew the world was going to shit, but now I’m terrified of it because I’m now an active participant. That said, I wouldn’t dream of go back for anything.
Yeah, same. Being indifferent to your own death is a bit of a shield. Now there’s no possibility of emotional distance between myself and everything that’s happening.
Of all the moments in my life I could’ve picked to finally become a person…
better to be a person than to live as a husk