• maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    8 days ago

    :o

    <3 <3

    thank u for saying that… thats quite a (positive) whiplash coming from my previous comment being kinda aggressive and negative.

    a lot - and i mean a lot if the co fidence comes from hrt. the placebo alone did a lot but now that… boobas are actually growing, my smell is changing a bit and… feelings are more explosive and active now… it has done so much.

    no other drug could make me feel this good.

    don’t worry, I have told my therapist about how terrible she has been so far. because she really - really really has been. I told her that i felt worse after each session, that I felt my topics are either not addressed, pushed under a rug or literally talked inbetween of… when I mentioned… playing with self harm, she went “oh no, we don’t do that stuff around here” and pulled out a generic depression book and didnt even let me talk about a thing I wanted to talk about… My mother was with me at that point and even she, on the drive home, went like “yea no she cut you off multiple times while you were trying to say something”… it won’t improve, but whatever - I’m trynna improve it anyway cuz whatever- I’m not paying for it… but wow. like… she really has been… the worst. while genuinely trying to be helpful. like - she really was trying her best but didnt notice… what I said… its crazy.

    yapping over. more yapping incoming in the pancake video.