i just dont know what to do anymore. i have a healthy sex drive, i meet people i like, i have sex with them, and it just never really feels that good. i meet girls who can just cum and cum, and i can only seem to do it at home by myself… and even then its so fucking hard. it doesnt matter if i masturbate or not, how into the person or situation i am, no matter what i do or they do. im literally crying writing this. i had the best experience of my life the other day, by a lot, and i still couldn’t cum. im just so tired… i want to enjoy it like other people do but i just cant. i feel like im broken and theres nothing i can do to fix it, and somehow things got worse when i started estrogen. prog just makes me hornier but doesnt make things feel better. it feels like theres nothing left to do so this is just screaming into the void because i have no one in my life to talk to about this stuff. fuck… fucking fuck…
Could be that the dysphoria is societal dysphoria or other kind. Like expectations to them. I have faced this towards my body hair.
I feel uncomfy to go out in other things than jeans and high tigh and is mostly this. That does not means I needed full epilation but a environment where I felt safe to be myself there and not to worry for some hair in my legs.
I definitely feel this! I haven’t dealt with dysphoria in a long time, and I rarely deal with any form of bigotry in my personal life, but I still feel that pressure! I’ve been late to things because the stubble on my legs was just a little too long, even though it’s unlikely anyone would notice it, and I had to shave. Hell, even today I wore a long skirt instead of shorts because I didn’t have time to shave! Super annoying, especially because no one would likely notice or care, but I’m sure someone made an off comment when I was impressionable and now that’s psychic damage I gotta live with.