Hmmmm 🤔

This old egg certainly has new tricks 😉

  • Lupec@lemm.ee
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    5 months ago

    Lol reminds me of how I’d reach for oddly specific, totally unprompted denials pretty often.

    “Man, having a ponytail is actually so nice, I love it. Not in, like, a trans way or anything though haha”

    • OldEggNewTricks@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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      5 months ago

      Ouch! That reminds me of one of the episodes which led to my egg cracking…

      Scene: me, out drinking with some friends who just happen to all be women (no hint there, obviously). Fairly well-oiled at this point.

      Me: Since everyone else is a girl, maybe I should just become one too, ha ha!
      Fren (surprised): Where did that come from? Are you transgender? That’s cool if you are, I’m bi by the way.
      Me: Ha ha no, only joking, just felt like the odd one out that’s all, let’s change the subject right now…
      Me (to self): fuck fuck fuck where did that come from, I mean I do want to be a girl, but cis people don’t say that kind of thing, dumbass

      Get home; wake up with hangover and gender crisis.

      • Lupec@lemm.ee
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        5 months ago

        Damn, that’s intense! It does feel oddly familiar haha. I was on self-imposed copium for most of my life so my internal monologue would happily have added “Still cis tho!” to the end there 😅

      • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
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        5 months ago

        I didn’t have any breakthrough moments when I started questioning, but I did when I realized girl was right for me. I imagined life as a mom, and the years of questioning fell into place. I never wanted to be a man. Even when I want to be more masculine, it’s still as a masculine woman, not an enby or a man.

        I also want kids, an even sadder realization after telling myself I shouldn’t bring any into this world. I just want to be a mom. I didn’t choose to want it, but that’s life 🤷‍♀️

    • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
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      5 months ago

      “Wow, this person became healthier, happier, and more capable after transitioning. Too bad that won’t happen for me.”

      Tbf, I had few reasons to think I would prefer being a girl so much. I just hadn’t considered it as an option, so I needed to view it as one first. Needless to say, I found few reasons to be anything else, which also took a long time to accept.