It felt for a few years that things were looking up. No one really cared when I transitioned, people were largely supportive.
Since 2016 though, things have been in a rapid decline. I’m exhausted, I feel like I have a target on my back, and I’m terrified.
I want to move but the economy is crashing and I have some semblance of stable work now. Not enough to save for a move, not enough to get above water on the debt my ex left me, but enough that hopefully I’ll be able to keep paying rent and keep food in my fridge.
I just can’t imagine another three years of this.
You feel like you have a target on your back, because you do. Your primary task now is to protect yourself. That might mean being armed. It definitely means building relationships with people around you. It should mean putting together a decent go bag.
I don’t say any of this to be scary. It’s just true. I have a trans son, also AuDHD, and it’s fucking hard to face the reality of the gestures widely situation right now.