I agree with everything you said, but I don’t use this tablet for anything other than Youtube, Twitch, e6, and Lemmy, and I’m not logged into any accounts on it. I said I still needed those files, but realistically, I don’t think I’ll need them. I haven’t looked at them in months. It’s just a media consumption device at this point, which is why I couldn’t be bothered to switch yet, but I guess I’ll do it this week, then, just to be safe :3

Some games are either great or terrible, depending on the day. There’s no in-between. One day, I might be having the time of my life playing a game, and the next day, I’ll curse it out because it’s the worst game ever and the dumbest shit and who thought this was a good idea?! But the good days are so worth it. They make me feel so good.

The periods of apathy never last more than a month or two, and when they’re over, I can go back to being moderately productive. But when it hits really hard, even small tasks are hard to manage. Like, imagine a young child screaming “I don’t wannaaaa” in this high-pitched voice, stomping their foot on the ground. Sometimes, that’s in my head when I try to do stuff. But it doesn’t last forever, and after a while, I’ll get things done again. Or I brute-force it, produce a half-assed “I hate myself” version of what I’m trying to do, and chip away at that until it’s acceptable. I guess what I’m trying to say is, I already try to do all that, but it’s never easy.

I was in therapy for almost two years (with breaks because therapists take time off, too), but other than a handful of phrases that come in handy every once in a while, I don’t think it was all that useful. I’m still glad I did it because now I don’t have to wonder “what if.” Maybe CBT wasn’t the right approach for me, or maybe a different therapist would’ve been better, but finding a good one can take years with how long their waiting lists are.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that it won’t always be like that, and that this is just a phase. Sure, it’s a cycle, just like the moon, and the bad times will return. But the good times are fun. That’s what I always try to remember.

That’d be lovely. It feels like it’s either some of the software going haywire or a hardware issue. I bought it in 2016, so it’s probably the latter, but it hasn’t had any software updates in a few years, either. I wanna try to install LineageOS once I don’t need the files on it any more (a bunch of university stuff that I’ll back up but don’t want to bother copying back to the tablet).

Seeing these recaps is one of my favourite things every new year. It’s a bummer August and September are empty, but you managed to come back in October and drew some really cool art <3

My tablet might be on its way out because it randomly flashbangs me all the time. It’s not the brightness setting, the screen just flashes at max brightness for a fraction of a second before it goes back to the correct brightness when I turn it on. Recently, the screen started “flashing” when the tablet is in use, too (the brightness flickers between 10% and 100%), but only when the brightness is set to low. It’s really weird.

The apathy is probably the worst part. Like, I know this thing I need to do is important and that not doing it will have some very negative consequences, but I just don’t care enough to do it. Then, last-minute panic sets in and I half-ass it, which is still good enough, but it hurts that I could do so much more if my brain wasn’t malfunctioning like that.

Heyy, Linux Mint gang! :3

I really love the ^w^ on the right

Beans are beautiful :3c

Wide images like this are so cool. There are so many parallel story lines, and the people on the left have no idea what’s happening on the right. There’s so much going on, but it doesn’t feel chaotic because all these small groups are in their own little universe. It’s very nice :3

Ooh, I was thinking of de-clawing. Thank you!

Lots of people seem to like Cult of the Lamb. Maybe I should give it a try some time :3

Ah, thank you! I’m not a cat person and didn’t know that, but now I do :3

Don’t be so dramatic?? I AM the drama! (Also, isn’t it bad to clip a cat’s claws?)

mrrrow mew. meow meow, nyaa meow :3

Boykissers with Santa hats? It’s not even December and it’s already beginning to look a lot like kissmas :3

Technically, I’d say yes. If I had the money to buy the stuff I’d need to make the kind of porn I like, I’d do it, and I think that’d be perfectly acceptable porn. Just adults having fun and sharing it online. There’d also be genuine emotion / lust in it, which would address the issue of objectification mentioned in the video essay. But I don’t know enough about porn / gonewild subs and communities and their vetting processes. And the subs that feature my kinks don’t have any verification process at all, other than an “OC” flair that anybody can use.

This might sound silly (and it’d probably be impossible to implement), but if porn had something like vegan labels (this or this), a label that says “We looked into it and gave it this label so you don’t have to worry about it,” that’d make things a lot easier.

A very nice and interesting video essay :3

I really like the comparison of traditional and furry porn because that’s one of the reasons I prefer the latter, at least “intellectually.” What I mean is that traditional porn, as in, human porn, has some ethical issues, some of which this video highlights. There’s usually no emotional bond or even a visible lack of attraction that can lead to the objectification of the actors, the porn industry can be very shady, and while home-made porn reduces the risk of actors being defrauded, you can rarely guarantee that it’s not abuse or revenge porn (even if most of it isn’t, I can never stop thinking “but what if this clip is?”). That doesn’t mean that watching human porn doesn’t turn me on, so there’s still that primal or whatever urge that competes with the “intellectual” part that sees the ethical complications of a lot of human porn.

Of course, not all human porn is bad, though I don’t have any statistics. I know one production company that I’m, like, 95% sure is legit and treats their actors well, but you need to put in so much effort to find that out (and you need to go beyond the banner on their website saying it’s all fine and dandy). For me, finding porn I like and trying to figure out how the actors are treated is just so much work that I’d rather not watch human porn at all.

And on top of that, there are all the other reasons mentioned in this video: emotions are depicted more clearly (or at all), there are additional ways to convey how characters feel (like a wagging tail when a character is tied up), and (this brings me back to the above paragraphs) it’s obviously not real. There’s nobody who could get hurt or abused, even in the wildest, riskiest scenarios. Sure, some clients might try to avoid paying artists, maybe that’s an avenue for abuse, but afaik there are “industry standards” to prevent that from happening nowadays.

eating garlic bread, heck yeah

You are just as cute as a cat, even without the cat noises. Keep making them if they make you happy though <3

The nice thing about big subs who could just pick you up and yeet you is that it’s a constant reminder that they genuinely want to be dommed by you <3