So I got kicked out for being horrible, I have BPD and I just suck horribely. I’m a piece of shit by every measurable amount, I parentofied everyone cause I was neglected and autistic, I didnt do house chores without being asked, I would ask things to people before googling them, I’m a literal piece of shit, and I fear if I live with other roomates which is basiclly required in our economy I’ll just fuck it, like ive dome twice. Thats why all my friends could offer me is a couch in the corner for 3 months, I’m a piece of shit.

I wanted to run away to Seattle and try to start again since there isnt anything for me in new Orleans anymore. Getting kicked out was the last straw for me, I balled and begged like a dog but nothing changed. I want to get help but I fear if my roomates arnt aware and are super honest with me I’ll just end up living in my car. I’m scared and I want guidence, I’m autistic and this is the biggest leap for me. I was living with childhood friends for the longest.

  • awmwrites@lemmy.cafeEnglish
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    6 days ago

    Universities and colleges are letting out now, so now’s a good time to start looking for trans and neurodivergent friendly housing. I’d recommend starting outside of Seattle in Shoreline, Lynnwood, and Everett, as it will probably be less expensive to live. You can always take the Link into Seattle. Look for trans and neurodivergent friendly facebook groups, craigslist postings, discord groups. Be prepared to bounce off people until you find a good place. Reach out to Express Employment or other work placement programs to see if they can find you work. If you think your BPD is severe enough to be considered a disability, you may be able to open a state disability claim and see if you can get a case manager, maybe a therapist, maybe move into an adult family home. There’s also Portland if you think the rainy weather might not be good for your mental health. Just don’t give up and try not to beat yourself up too much.

    • Snot Flickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
      6·
      6 days ago

      If you think your BPD is severe enough to be considered a disability, you may be able to open a state disability claim and see if you can get a case manager, maybe a therapist, maybe move into an adult family home.

      There’s also the Washington DSHS Adult Blind and Disabled program that pays out $450 a month while you wait for Federal disability approval.