So I got kicked out for being horrible, I have BPD and I just suck horribely. I’m a piece of shit by every measurable amount, I parentofied everyone cause I was neglected and autistic, I didnt do house chores without being asked, I would ask things to people before googling them, I’m a literal piece of shit, and I fear if I live with other roomates which is basiclly required in our economy I’ll just fuck it, like ive dome twice. Thats why all my friends could offer me is a couch in the corner for 3 months, I’m a piece of shit.

I wanted to run away to Seattle and try to start again since there isnt anything for me in new Orleans anymore. Getting kicked out was the last straw for me, I balled and begged like a dog but nothing changed. I want to get help but I fear if my roomates arnt aware and are super honest with me I’ll just end up living in my car. I’m scared and I want guidence, I’m autistic and this is the biggest leap for me. I was living with childhood friends for the longest.