i just dont know what to do anymore. i have a healthy sex drive, i meet people i like, i have sex with them, and it just never really feels that good. i meet girls who can just cum and cum, and i can only seem to do it at home by myself… and even then its so fucking hard. it doesnt matter if i masturbate or not, how into the person or situation i am, no matter what i do or they do. im literally crying writing this. i had the best experience of my life the other day, by a lot, and i still couldn’t cum. im just so tired… i want to enjoy it like other people do but i just cant. i feel like im broken and theres nothing i can do to fix it, and somehow things got worse when i started estrogen. prog just makes me hornier but doesnt make things feel better. it feels like theres nothing left to do so this is just screaming into the void because i have no one in my life to talk to about this stuff. fuck… fucking fuck…
Might be bottom dysphoria if ur pre-op
This sounds quite transmedicalist. It does feel she likes to top and also the term you use imply that every transfem must undergo bottom surgery which is not or that it is a goal.
i do like to top :3
Meow :3
The term pre-op does sound presumptuous, but the idea that bottom dysphoria could play a role isn’t truscum. My partner loves topping and is on the fence about getting bottom surgery, but still has bottom dysphoria and that’s a huge part of why she has trouble orgasming.
Could be that the dysphoria is societal dysphoria or other kind. Like expectations to them. I have faced this towards my body hair.
I feel uncomfy to go out in other things than jeans and high tigh and is mostly this. That does not means I needed full epilation but a environment where I felt safe to be myself there and not to worry for some hair in my legs.
I definitely feel this! I haven’t dealt with dysphoria in a long time, and I rarely deal with any form of bigotry in my personal life, but I still feel that pressure! I’ve been late to things because the stubble on my legs was just a little too long, even though it’s unlikely anyone would notice it, and I had to shave. Hell, even today I wore a long skirt instead of shorts because I didn’t have time to shave! Super annoying, especially because no one would likely notice or care, but I’m sure someone made an off comment when I was impressionable and now that’s psychic damage I gotta live with.