i just dont know what to do anymore. i have a healthy sex drive, i meet people i like, i have sex with them, and it just never really feels that good. i meet girls who can just cum and cum, and i can only seem to do it at home by myself… and even then its so fucking hard. it doesnt matter if i masturbate or not, how into the person or situation i am, no matter what i do or they do. im literally crying writing this. i had the best experience of my life the other day, by a lot, and i still couldn’t cum. im just so tired… i want to enjoy it like other people do but i just cant. i feel like im broken and theres nothing i can do to fix it, and somehow things got worse when i started estrogen. prog just makes me hornier but doesnt make things feel better. it feels like theres nothing left to do so this is just screaming into the void because i have no one in my life to talk to about this stuff. fuck… fucking fuck…
I know that times are hard so this might be useless advice. Have you talked to a sex therapist about this? A friend of mine had similiar issues which were related to her christian upbringing and she was able to figure things out with a therapist. Not saying it’s the same root issue for you, but might be worth a shot? 🤞
i havent talked to one no, but ive thought about it. it could be… i was raised christian. i dont believe any of it anymore, but there could be some internalized shame i havent addressed… no there probably is. guess ill look into it.
Wishing you the best girlie. And just to note: for my friend this was after she left the faith. This shit runs deep =/
just a little update, i think a large part of my problem is in fact sexual shame. i tried reading girl sex 101 a bit today while trying to be gentle and accepting of myself and it was… emotionally difficult to say the least. even just telling myself my sexual feelings are normal and good, and trying to believe it, was almost too much. its gonna be a hard road for a minute…