i just dont know what to do anymore. i have a healthy sex drive, i meet people i like, i have sex with them, and it just never really feels that good. i meet girls who can just cum and cum, and i can only seem to do it at home by myself… and even then its so fucking hard. it doesnt matter if i masturbate or not, how into the person or situation i am, no matter what i do or they do. im literally crying writing this. i had the best experience of my life the other day, by a lot, and i still couldn’t cum. im just so tired… i want to enjoy it like other people do but i just cant. i feel like im broken and theres nothing i can do to fix it, and somehow things got worse when i started estrogen. prog just makes me hornier but doesnt make things feel better. it feels like theres nothing left to do so this is just screaming into the void because i have no one in my life to talk to about this stuff. fuck… fucking fuck…
i know… ive even told others as much on here for other stuff. im trying to be kind to myself but its been hard to apply in practice. i spent so much time beating myself up over stuff its a hard habit to break.
It is a hard habit to break. No doubt. It’s important to your happiness so you will keep at it until it’s integral. That much is clear. Stay the course. It will not ever be easy but you will gain skill as you explore and try different ways to be. Please please please remember the baddie you are already by just admitting you are different or struggling let alone working to create your best life every day. 🤜🏻🤛🏻🫂💜