The room? Cleaned

The mirror? Shiny

The vibes? Immaculate

The song? ‘Forgotten voyage’ lindsey stirling

Just happy this weeks better than the last. How about everyone else?

  • chattre@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    6·
    8 days ago

    cute comfy looking fit :3

    I posted about it before, but I got my first injection done yesterday!! inside I’ve been feeling super great :3

    my spawnpoint has just been getting on my nerves lately though, hot weather coming up and she won’t stop bugging me to wear short sleeves and shorts… LITERALLY NO… I can’t even explore further than plain long sleeves and sweatpants because of you… I do NOT want to go back to the masc stuff

    some part of my impulsiveness just wants to do it one day just to let her see that I’ve already shaved myself quite well, but then home life would get quite a bit more explosive… she thinks I’m following her “advice” and not doing any transition. I know I can’t keep up the lies and deception forever… but I gotta try really hard to hold out at least until after my high school graduation

    as always, my life is always a mixed bag… sigh 🫠

    • brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      7·
      8 days ago

      Aww im sorry girly, its tough being underage and still under parents thumb. I do hope it gets better for you, hopefully your this years class?

      Congraties on the shots though! I cant say im not a little envious, what i wouldnt give to start hrt but like 10 years ago 😂

      Keep on keeping on, and dont let the world drag you down ❤️

      • chattre@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        2·
        7 days ago

        I am this year’s class!! I just wanna get it over with and move on… close one chapter and open the next

        honestly still find it pretty funny that my journey feels reversed, things that are “easier” to do are hard for me and the “harder” things are more manageable…

        • outfits: I have no idea what I want, exploring takes time I don’t have atm, I can’t store them somewhere easily accessible, I can’t wear them very often, ugh. I do have a skirt and thigh highs which I love though so I know that much at least… I’m now in full support of pants ban >:3
        • shaving: also pretty spotty, I’ve gotten a routine together but I can’t do my arms or face without making spawnpoint get all on my case again…
        • haircut: I already have long hair, but I can’t style it or explore, ditto with shaving

        but then??

        • therapy: appointments are available in the near future so I’ll have to check them out
        • job: very likely coming I hope… I want my own money just in case of anything
        • name: I have a name already and it sticks… love it sm and my friends use it whenever we talk
        • HRT: zero barriers!?? thank you PP but wtf that was scary fast 😆

        I’m starting to see how the rest of the world is ready to accept me far better than my spawnpoint… keeping away from her and making myself better is the goal!!

        • brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
          2·
          7 days ago

          Hell yeah! We dont all have it together alll the time, even as adults. Youll find that adulthood is much the same as being a minor, especially if you dont have the most helpful birthgivers. I didnt either, and my upbringing was steeped in racism, homophobia, and any other bigotry and prejudice under the sun. The biggest thing i learned from all that is where hate gets you.

          Sorry you cant wear what you want and shave what you want without being inspected, its gross. Policing your body is some real predator energy tbh. Im glad you have supportive friends, and its soooo close to the end of the school year your almost there!

          I second getting a job or some kind of income, not because i tell everyone to “get a job”. But because its liberating having your own money, and from the sounds of it you might need it more than most.

          Were always here for you girly, when life is rough make sure to take care of yourself! And your always welsome to come vent to me ❤️