they was tryed to fix my gender thru schizophrenia treatment(evrn for schizopheria is too hard)

fluvoxamine 2024 july -> december up to 175mg
alimemazine 2024 july -> august idk dose
risperidone 2024 august -> september (because i tried to start HRT lol) -> prolactinoma(does they fucked my undeveloped breasts? they didmt grow much but also can be genetic)
aripiprazol 2024 september -> december up to 30 mg
promazine -> only two pills, mom decided that is too hard doctor decision
hydroxyzine -> 2024 autumn idk how much since forced
lurasidone -> 2024 december up to 120 mg, stopped 20 mg only 3 months ago
clomipramine -> 2024 december -> 2025 april, up to 75 mg
valproic acid -> 2024 december -> 2026 january, up to 1500 mg
phenibut -> 2024 december -> 2025 march, placebo dose 500mg
hopantenic acid -> dont remember much but def was in 2025 autumn
acetazolamide -> dont remember much
emoxypine -> spring 2025, also autumn 2025
piracetam -> dont remwmber
sertraline -> may 2025 -> still taking and tapering(and feeling only better!)

testosterone -> by body itself from 12 yo up to 15.9 yo

now i still have muscle rigidgy shit idk

i got chemical&psychological CPTSD, thank you mom i will kill you someday

i got strong desire to soft recreational drugs by last 7 month, even if i feel good, a very good i still wanna some euphoric chemical(i got addicted to some of bumped drugs? i got damaged receptors from antipsychotics? or its ADHD?) (never did recreational drugs since i strong controlled by parents and govrenment)

tapering “medicines” -> feeling only better

why every right wing “doctor” propaganda scream about forever addiction and tolerance to any drug, but noone doctor screams about forever antipsychptic brain damage?

i tried to fix post-antipsychotic muscle shit via tizanidine which is a2-adrengenic receptor agonist GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE IN FEW DAY!!! upped dose, GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE again, possibly my a2 receptor damaged by ANTAGONIST antipsychotics(all, lurasidone, risperidone, aripiprazol etc) since that fast tolerance weird for standart doses of this med

how long my brain receptors recovery will take? when my CNS get repaired

  • squeeG@piefed.blahaj.zone
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    I have no idea how some doctors keep their licenses wow. I just wanna say be very careful with tapering, I’m sure you will be but I just wanna make sure you’re safe, I’m glad you got your appetite back that’s great!

    The real key is to not expect a great improvement, or if you start to feel better and then feel worse again one day, don’t let it discourage you too much because it will get better eventually

    Yeah I dunno, I used to buy a lot of nootropics online and they all came from China, as far as I know everything was legit, at least it didn’t kill me :P, but that was years ago. stay safe

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      nah is just russian medicine, real doctors will lose their lisence and possibly go to prison

      yeah i dont expect improvement, but is def like always just same state

      the worse - better state, depends on fcking muscle state aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

      yeah china is pretty legit especially if its bigpharma where even western bigpharma buys raw substances, but there a def awful worker rights in china, buuut eastern europe is better? nah

      russian bigpharma only buys at india/china and never do own, and they say IS OUR MEEEMDSSDSD!!! saying our meds != just pill press ready raw powder

      european big pharma is often use china/india too, but usually a western EU stuff

      zoloft raws is from puerto rico fuuun (also fun that govrenment dont keep that data censored, but its openly available at med registry grls.rosminzdrav.ru)