this is gonna be a short one, trust me! >o< (im trustworthy, see my pfp waving to you… yes its waving!!!)
there is no content warning, this is all child-friendly content.

i - wow. i was playing a game to get my mind off of things. (playing osu… a game which needs quite the amount of realtime attention)

but then i thought of my crush a smol bit. not much, nothing spicy, nothing special, literally just us and another friend sitting and having tea.

but then!!! evil and selfish and uncontrollable as my thoughts are - i imagined them asking me something!!! >o< aaaa ohgosh.

wasnt even anything big, wasnt even like - exciting or anything. but!

my - (this sounds weird) my tummy and pelvis started like - bubbling and buzzing like crazy. like crazy. like - crazy.

its like roller coaster riding but only the part where u go straight down but without the gut-wrenching feeling and more positive and this might still be an understatement honestly.

i lost the level because i was pulling my hands off of the keyboard as i was - involuntarily squirming back and forth on the chair, moving away from the desk… this really does sound weird.

like - i had to actively distract myself to get it to stop. it wasnt a horny thing, it was very different.

(for anyone caring: am on hrt for 2 months)

wowie zowie. anyway, am i allowed to post stuff like this here, or is this maybe not the right place?

also, i hope u have a lovely day <3

  • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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    4 days ago

    yeah. at this point i dont wanna have to live ever again without these feels. im so happy i can have them and they make doin stuff and yapping to peeps feel so very much more important and real and like its not just about conversing and getting stuff done, but about the thing itself-----